The Blindroad

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2012-01-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

For the first very long time, I'm excited about growing up. 'Growing up' always seemed to be my perfect parallel line because most people in my life thinks that I'm older than they actually thought and you know they naturally think that there's no need for more 'growing up' and I do have to admit that it has been the truth all these while. I've ended school at 16 and started working in an events company at 17. I spent a year of my barely teenage life with working adults and people who are way out of my league in terms of society wise but I've always looked upon it as a blessing in disguise. When I finally turned 18, I flew to Adelaide for University. The freshman year was undeniably heaps of fun and crazy party, making lots of new friends. I do have to admit it is the kinda stereotype overseas student life. Then comes Year 2 where the boy comes into the picture. I believe every girl has that to-do-list-with-bf hence it was really the time to put into good use. I do feel very lucky and am very much in love now. As much as my friends and family think that I've already 'grown up', maturity wasn't always put into place. I've met people that I can't trust but trusted them wholeheartedly anyways. But, I guess for every bad that happen comes a good one in return. I have a handful of great friends by my side and I'm really grateful.

2012 started off hectic. I was busy looking for new houses, planning my Europe trip, drawing budget plans. The house that we eyed for was extremely beautiful. It is what you would call a dream house and hopefully, *crossed fingers* we'll get that dream house. After my Europe trip, I'll be finishing my one last semester and I'll be officially a University Graduate! I think it is somehow a bigger dream, to me, to Kel and to our parents. I can't wait for that day to come. Have a great year ahead KIMMY!!!

Will New Year be a new year?

2012-01-02T15:09:00.001+08:00

I tried so hard to a point where I am asking myself why am I even doing this.

I thought when I do something for someone I love, I don't expect anything in return.

But after all, I'm not so magnanimous and reciprocation is what I secretly want.

My blindfolded 20th

2011-12-30T15:14:00.000+08:00

Yes, finally hitting the 20s which to me felt like it actually happened a few years ago. I really had a great birthday celebration. Something mellow yet surprising. I had my girls and my boy with me and that's all that matters. I guess birthday wishes kinda worked out for me because my life hasn't been much of a turmoil neither dramatic. I was always on the luckier side and I do wish it remains the same for the rest of my life.

Time

2011-12-18T10:53:00.002+08:00

It's all about savouring every moment of happiness, because you'll never know when its gonna disappear.

Life puzzle

2011-12-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Some people appear in your life, fits right into it just like that puzzle you managed to picked up buried in the ocean of a thousands others. And there's puzzles you tried fitting them in knowing that they couldn't but you try anyways. Life's very much like a puzzle, finding the missing pieces, trial and error and finally everything gets into places and then the final picture.

If time would stop right here

2011-12-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

The thought of being exam free and getting into endless holiday plans seem to be the best I can ever have. You know I'm the kinda person who can't do nothing even for a minute and times like that when I have seriously nothing to do, apart from praying for my vacation to draw closer, I miss having exams. That sadistic jam packed feeling, fighting against time, and cursing every minute of my life for it to be over. As much as it may sound like the most ludicrous thing you've heard, yes, I do enjoy that feeling for a tiny bit. I guess its like human nature. When you had this, you wanted that and when you finally had that, you reminisce about the one before. I think this whole cycle will be playing me for the rest of my life. Nevertheless, I am so so so looking forward to the graduation trip with my girls.

My lunch box during the exam period. So cute ><

It was how I felt everyday before the torture ended.

Korean maggie noodle with cheese, yummy.

The scrumptious stonegrill set that is better than sex (according to Hayley). But honestly, it is so yummy that even looking at it right now, makes me wanna drool.

CHERRY PICKING DAY!

I am, for some reasons, a big fan of picking. Lu drove us up Adelaide Hills in the morning after our humble Mc breakfast for cherry picking which he proposed earlier the other day and I nodded profusely to. The car ride was speechless. I held on to my breath for every turn he made. I'm not gonna lie, I am like the biggest chicken in the world. I have heights and I'm anti-speed person so clearly things like roller coaster, speedy car rides would take my life. But yes, I survived through the ride and it was all worth it when I see those big fat cherry hanging on the trees looking sweet. Along our cherry picking journey, we started playing the who-can-spit-the-cherry seeds- furthest and followed by the more improvised version of who-can-spit-the-cherry seeds-into-the-pail. We payed only an entrance fees of 5 bucks which is pretty cheap and fill our stomach with heaps of cherries

That's pretty much the end of my cherry journey and coming up next would be my birthday followed by our Melbourne/Gold Coast trip. Speaking of which, I can't believe I'm turning 20. I was telling Ron that once I turned 20, I have no excuse to act like a kiddo and would totally lose the " Oh, I'm sorry I'm still young" line for forgiveness. Time to really grow up Kimmy! :)

I'll pay

2011-12-01T19:21:00.002+08:00

How much does it cost to buy that DVD of your past?

G'day

2011-11-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

That day I've been looking for so badly, came. No exams, no duedates.

L.O.V.E

2011-11-18T02:23:00.003+08:00

I never believed in 'you complete me' but now, I finally do.

Cos' you just made being happy so easy.

Change

2011-11-18T02:09:00.001+08:00

I remember when I was younger like really young, I had my eye on this barbie that costs like 20 bucks but at that age, 20 bucks was like a huge thing so I could only look at it as that barbie on the shelf. Now that I'm all grown and I could easily slides those notes out of my wallet to purchase my wish, yet they aren't anymore. I mean how ironic is it that you finally could afford something of your wish and suddenly it became something that you don't want. Maybe it's that ' unreachable' feeling that we all are looking for, and the feeling where is lurking beneath that keeps life going.

I couldn't agree more to how much growing up changes the cycle. I was lying on my bed, thinking bout how much I've change, thinking about how much I used to want something and don't now, how much I hated something and start liking it now and the string of thoughts went forever. And all of these thoughts made me realise that what i always perceived as 'personalities' are in fact 'habits' that stays in me. Let me put it this way. I could say with assurance that I'm not a morning person and strongly believes its born in me and labelled it as my character and simply say , " Yea that's me",but in fact otherwise.Actually, It is the habits that I religiously believed to be my character. The thing is, I just realised the resistance of changes is sometimes not because you can't but you actually don't want to.

I honestly have no clue where I am driving to and its just one of those nights I am rambling my thoughts away

The Student Life

2011-11-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

As a student, we have things that we absolutely hate. Which include:

Getting out that warm comfy bed early for school
Lectures are way too boring
Its such a great day to be in the movies than to be here in UNI
EXAMSSS

Yea, I am at this depressing phase of option no. 4, EXAMS. To make things worst, this is my last supposed semester and really, when you want time to pass faster, they just don't. All the vacation plans I've made just seemed way too ahead. I felt like a Ninja needing to break through those endless walls of books and exams before reaching the peak and getting my reward. Yes,toally ain't enjoying it. But then again, this could possibly me last exams ever in my life, not like i would ever be missing it but my point is, it actually means that my student life is coming to an end. Being a student is just so fabulous (excluding the assignments and exams). We get plenty of sleep, plenty of partying and everyday just felt like a SATURDAY. I mean this could actually be the best part of my life. But, why on earth does my so called 'best part of life' have to always end off in such a hazardous way (exams)?

Lifee

2011-11-08T18:04:00.000+08:00

:(

2011-11-07T15:15:00.002+08:00

I just realised, I have no talent :'(

I MISS HONGKONG

2011-11-03T03:42:00.000+08:00

MISS HONG KONG <3

O.M.G

2011-11-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

It's November the second! Weather's heated up, insects and animals are back embracing the world, scaring human beings after their winter hibernation. Damn. I have no idea how massive my fears are when it comes to creatures until today. I would wanna say things like " oooh... I love nature" but if the nature refers to mega lizard, mouse and crickets. No thanks, I would rather shaft a drumstick up my mouth, watching movie in my air conditioned room. 25 more days to be exact count the days to the end of my exams and supposedly end of University life. Wooray, part of me feels so thrilled for my soon to be exam-free life, yet the other prefers lingering on that wonderful student life.

Monthly Things to Do Plan

December:

Gold Coast Graduation Trip with my GIRLS
Pre-celebration of Kel's birthday
Search for new houses
Extension of visa
Learn Basic Spanish
Hay leaving for good :'( FAREWELL PARTY
Christmas Party with the remaining :)

January

Ron leaving for good :'( maybe not :p
Flying back to Singapore (19 Jan)
More family and friends time - According to my family, due to my absence at home, leftover food is piling up so time for me to clear them.
Collect more ang pao for CNY
Eat my usual food-to-eat-list
DO NOT SHOP

February

Leaving for Barcelona alone - Be strong, Be strong ~~ (3 Feb-4th Mar)
Do not put on any weight
Master basic fluent Spanish wahahaha
Cute Spanish guys for Kel
Watching a soccer match

March

Travel Europe
Do not put on weight
Arrive Adelaide (24 Mar)
Starts school
oneyearanniv

April

Find a part time job
Get a driving licence :x
Prepare for graduate visa
Pending......

Sharon's 21st ft. Hallo-kitty-ween

2011-11-01T00:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY AH RON!

The dotti gal FAIRY-LIKE in da house.

Our appetiser of the day at COS, not exactly the best food for its extravagant price but the atmosphere really stands the majority of the costs.

Haley's beautiful dress! Not that the picture did justice.

Hokkaido Japanese Cheesecake. One of the best cakes I've ate, not that I was ever a cake person but it really does taste great.

The highlight of the night, TEQUILA SHOTS

The beginning of the KO journey

HALLO-KITTY-WEEN 2011

The most obvious evidence of "time flies" never fail to show on special occasions. I remembered Kel and I went as police woman and fire fighter last year with a whole bunch of different friends. We were financially capable of renting costumes that cost a bomb. However, this year we went as economically-friendly kitties. We did had a lot of fun, but I really do have to reluctantly admit that I'm old. I'm just both physically and mentally tired of the club scenes and all. HQ still remains as our all time favourite clubs because of all the countless amount of unforgettable events that grew with us along the years.

We had this guy, Mr. Mouse (see below picture) looking cute, made himself comfortable beside us. He tried to start a not-so-fabulous conversation with us and because we thought he was cute, we didn't quite shooed him away from our table. Initially, he were just merely being friendly but not when he started trying his luck being physically friendly with H. He then slowly moved to us and shamelessly asked Kel and I if it would be a great idea if three of us kissed together. Ya right, how great is that. Worst of all, he stole H's and S's paws and ran away. I mean, it was not like getting hooked up is an unusual thing but we were just bummed by the idea of a cute guy turning out to be an total asshole.

SEXAYE BACK

HAHAHAHAHA, MISS SEAWEED NOSE :p

The end of the weekends suggests the whole inescapable week of mugging. Boy, I just wished studying time would pass as fast as playtime.

D.R.E.A.M.S

2011-10-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes dreams are just afterall, dreams.

Just like balloons that made you happy this moment, and slip through your hands the next.

seventhmonth

2011-10-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

God knows how far we've been,

And today seemed like yesterday, like the very first day.

Good night

2011-10-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

Queridos lágrimas, ya que cuando nos convertimos en mejores amigos?

2011-10-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe because I'm not alone anymore.

Summer Love

2011-10-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

I've been enjoying balling myself under the cold for the past few months and Summer's arrival would be the last thing I would wanna embrace. The car was heated up like a hot oven which made us almost roasted like pigs. Although, shorts and tees are my favourite fashion all year round but really, 32 degrees makes me wanna stripped down entirely. To make things worst, the air con in my house isn't exactly at its best of mood. Oh, apart from the worst out of worst things that are happening, I've experienced my first earthquake ever!! I didn't mean to make it sound so excited up but because it wasn't a killer, I was all hyped out by the split seconds tremor. My whole bed was trembling and I could see my fan rocking back and fourth but all these lasted for a good 3-4 seconds. It was kinda exciting but not unless if I died through that.

Ciao Ciao.

Adelaide Utd VS Melbourne Vic - 1 : 0

2011-10-15T13:13:00.000+08:00

If you were to ask me anything about football back then, I'll be like what? It's just another bunch of sweaty boys chasing over that one ball. I was way greener than a football novice could ever be, to be honest. Unfortunately (haha!), under the influence of my two darlings who are literally living for football, I don't have a choice but to watch matches with them when I'm to starting know and even start liking it . Technically speaking, more like watching the footballers. At least, I could recognise off-side (which I'm pretty proud of)! Yesterday's football match was seriously worth more than 20 bucks. Not only the match itself, but the after party.

The after party has officially accelerated to my top 10 most-exciting-things-that-happened-in-my-life-list. You know those crazy football fans creating a chaos and setting up fire you see in the news, fell right in front of my eyes that night. We are the first car that stopped right in front of them (how lucky), and the next thing we know, they set up some pink smoky like chemical, and fire while cheering in sync " fuck off Melbourne, fuck off Melbourne". We had our doors shut tight, LOCKED, camping in our car like frightened little Asian kittens. But really, what a scene! I was glad that we weren't supporting Melbourne cos you'll never know, we'll get killed for sure by judging how the crazy fans were acting.

We waited like for a good 20 mins before the crowd was dismissed by the police and for our car to finally start moving. But I'm sure we had every intention of running them down like the bowling pins cos all we wanna do is to get out and be safe. Apart from all these fears I had, I really did quite enjoyed it because it was so unreal. How could something in television appear right in front of me? " 20 bucks was so much more worth paying for this show!" I thought.

HAYLEY'S EXPLICIT 21ST

2011-10-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

Hay's birthday happened like ages ago, but I just wanna put up some photos because those would definitely be the funniest, funkiest things we've done. I mean even for me, it was an big eye opener *winks innocent big eyes*. I like how we could call the shots when it comes to our friend's birthday, and its usually me who will think of crazy ideas and pranks to surprise them. Yea, you can call that creative. I'll be more than happy to accept that credit. Okay, what I am trying to say is, yea I did come out with the idea of holding Hay's birthday at a stripper club cos' i'm sure with a touch of alcohol infused in her, I'm sure it would be the greatest night of her life -- in a good way. I would love to share those explicit photos of the club, but like i said,its EXPLICIT and really, I am a woman with integrity and ethics so that's all I'm gonna give.

TADA, I'm sorry to Mr-sexy-fireman-with-incredible-8-packs that I posted your photo :p

Like what kel always sings, "Cheers to the freakin' weekend~"

HALEY (do u like your name?haha), if you are seeing this, hope you enjoy your birthday cos' I truly ruly believe that you are an amazing person that I'll never be able to find someone like you again. Nobody screams ohyishi in the middle of the Japanese restaurant, nobody will ever look at a box of tissue paper like they were a pot of gold, nobody whom will NOT stop eating and lastly, nobody as sweet and kind as you!

PS: I was really taken aback by how much the strippers stripped down. WAHAHA

LIFE

2011-10-11T13:41:00.001+08:00

I'm back to blogger again, and honestly, I really prefer this way more than livejournal. Well anyways, I've been really packed with all the assignments confronting me back to back and trust me, this is definitely not my favourite period of the year. But luckily, I've a good amount holidays waiting for me that I'm all hyped out for! Yays. I know for sure by then my life will be escalating to whole new level of ridiculous fun. I can't wait to draw out my new holiday plans.

I'm actually guilty of not updating my life here because of my pure laziness but I just hoped that I could record some part of my wonderful life right here, so I have good memories to rely on in the future. To really start of with, the biggest change in my life in this 2 years is.... well, I would say... definitely the size of my house. I upgraded from living in a box with hollow walls apartment, to a good size house.

From THIS

To THIS

And also from THIS

To THIS

Besides, the change to a bigger house, we even got a car. Yes, I do not have a licence (ok, rub it in) but my kel does. So, practically you could say she is my housemate/best friend/driver. I'm not proud of not having a licence, not at all. I've tried to drive around when the road allows me, but well, none of the times turned out good, hence I strongly believe that its has affect my over-piling phobia of driving. However, of all these craps I've made up earlier, I PROMISE TO GET A LICENCE NEXT YEAR. YEA, A PROMISE IS A PROMISE. Anyways, I do like to believe that I'm evolving into a great home-cook-food-cooker.

Before you even doubt me, yes, I did cook all these by myself! If I hadn't had A for my grades in school, i'll for sure get an A for cooking (at least i'll liked to believe so. haha!). Lastly, just few random pictures I've found. Ciao Ciao

CHANGE

2011-05-16T13:15:00.002+08:00

For a better, secure change : www.blindroad.livejournal.com

Only if you

2011-05-10T16:30:00.002+08:00

People can hurt you, only if you allow them to.

We often asked god why could such unfortunate shits happen on the underserving us. But the real question we should ask ourselves is why do we allow people to do that to us? I can never believe in the whole "I can't live without you" corny saying cos' the next thing you know, you see him happily holding some other chicks hand down that street. My point is, girls, stop saying that you can't get over your Mr. Special cos the truth is, you are the one that is holding on to his non-existence 'special-ness' that you found lingering around you.

I'm not feeling broken, in fact it is exactly the opposite. I'm having the time of my life right now. I never thought i would be positioned in such a place when I'm at the best of both worlds. When I'm feeling really happy, the unhappiness of people around me starts to maginfy and all I want is to make them feel happy just like I do.

I know that right person will be coming soon for you, and I can't wait to witness that magical moment that will change you to an entirely happy person. Happy People, we shall soon be together.
08.11

BLIV

2011-04-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

I've got everything I wanted now, everything.

Just like wishing upon the stars, believing in Santa.

Change is what I need

2011-04-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

Those steps were steep and I thought I could leap.

Maybe it's just me, always running away from the same old things.

Why can't I just stop thinking, stop feeling, stop hanging out with that same old me?

Change is what I need.

Just like a tub of ice cream

2011-04-01T08:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing is perfect, yet i see these imperfection as happiness.

It's really that happiness that comes within.

Things are looking good baby.

THE MOST HAUNTED PLACE

2011-03-27T12:09:00.000+08:00

The past is that one ghost you'll never be able to get rid of.

The world of wonders

2011-03-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

"Expect the least expected"

Never ever have I crossed my mind about the situation I'm facing.

Good or bad, who am I to judge?

But at least one thing for sure,

follow my heart.

Too little time to waste

2011-03-16T14:49:00.002+08:00

You can be a sweet dream, or a beautiful night mare.

But sorry, I woke out from all these.

Time to rock your ass.

LIFE AND DEATH

2011-03-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

They say the beach tranquil your soul. How can i not agree to it? I know it's pretty ironic after last night's discussion about the earthquake and tsunami that wiped out Japan with my girls, and this morning we hit the beach enthusiastically. I hate to think that the other part of the world is drowned entirely, and here we are having the best time of our lives swimming in the beach. I can't help but to feel guilty; guilty for feeling happy.

The road that got splitted into half , exactly depicts that familiar scene in the movie "2012". It kept me thinking about the so called world-is-ending truth. I come to realise that none of them really matter anyways. Even if the world isn't ending, the possibility of getting knocked down by a car or getting murdered by some miscreants on the road is still there. And I, really should learn to comprehend that there are some things in this world you just can't do anything about.

PS: I didn't mean to sound so pessimistic but I really did have a great day.

Your heart doesn't lie, only the brain does

2011-03-06T10:26:00.000+08:00

Somtimes, I just have difficulties identitfying the true faces of people. My inability of differentiating lies and LIES has officially brought me to this phase of my life where I would probably say 'Oh fuck, he/she just lied to me AGAIN'. Honestly how pathetic, when I totally see that coming. Well Well, what can i say?

Jason (my friend), once told me that if you got cheated for the 1st time, you're just too kind. On the 2nd time you're just too gullible and on the 3rd time, well, what's that word... ermm oh, DUMB. Perfectly in my case, totally beyond dumb I am. Best part of all comes in a set with me wallowing in drepression and self deprecation, swearing my life out that I wouldn't believe a single shit from that person. Until this process is done, it cycles again. Maybe it's just me, that lil' part of me choose to forgive those lies and believe in repenting. But then again, my inability never fails me. So, now that I have a perfect life, I don't see why I should get affected nor disrupted by people like these.

Jason also said there's 2 types of people in this world, " People you need and people you don't"

Nah, Ain't my version bud. I'd stay with this, " People you trust, you used to and you never will"

PS: Apart from this negative post, I really wanna talk bout how awesome my life back here is.

Close my eyes, open my heart

2011-03-03T19:09:00.002+08:00

We are sometimes blinded with our ambitions

and forget bout' what we truly need.

Tears tell the truth

2011-02-20T01:38:00.000+08:00

When I see your tears telling me his tears,

My tears tell me who I really love.

And I swear with life I'll never ever make you upset again.

HK random morning

2011-02-16T09:20:00.000+08:00

Love brings people together, baby.

9 am in the early morning, here I am in HK crashing over at my friend's place awaits for my traditional hk breakfast. I am still so proud of myself with that unexpected self-alarm at 8 am, still I guess it entirely was cause by my excitement to some major shopping later on. Boots, coats, dresses, heels, you name it. I couldn't see any that isn't inked on my shopping list. I won't make this asia trip a waste before i head back to my home sweet home. Okay, i think i just heard the running tap stopped, my friend's ready to go so BYEEEEEE...

Forget that imprecation! ;)

2011-02-05T08:32:00.000+08:00

5 BIG Things to do when I get my licence and a car

1. I can drive down to the beach as and when I like

2. I can go grocceries shopping without suffering bruises on my shoulders from those incredibly heavy bags

3. I can move to a bigger/further/nicer house without worrying bout transport

4. I can go to IKEA infinite times, wherever, whenever

5. If my friend is tired of driving, I can always take over

As much as I don't trust my driving skills, I really wanna get a licence and a car. Whatever you say, luxurious or convinence purpose, I cannot find any reason not to have it. Getting a car ain't the problem, but well, the licence is. Moral of the story is getting a licence once I fly back has officially accelerated to my goddamn-do-it-now list.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR,

The year of goat is soooo awesome, may it be a lucky 2011 :)

ps: I can't wait to go HongKong! (i'm already feeling lucky)

Unusually unhealthy morning

2011-02-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

Good morning world. Well, that sleeping in once in two days come visiting like an old friend once again. I probably would be better off counting sheeps or even dredged up with a million of reasons why i should go to bed but apparently, i was conquered by the overpowering sense of hyper-activeness, sweet. Nope, don't even judge me. I never liked staying up late or sleeping in like there's no tomorrow, it's just well... hmm.. my body, i guess. The worse part of it, I am stucked in a rather awkward hour of how-bout-taking-some nap or how-bout-not-cos'-you're-going-out soon situation.

Speaking of which, I am heading out to get some white shorts for my cny and that's probably like the newest thing on me for that auspicious occasion, nevermind bout the redness. I am almost sure everyone gets less hyped out about a must in getting new clothes or rather 'cny' itself. The only thing that keep me (and heaps of people out there) going is the ang pao (damn, I missed last year's) and the GAMBLING(how can we miss?).

There's an unknown undercurrent of nervousness in me even by thinking bout it. According to my 2011 horoscope, I should gamble my life away cos' it states that i will never lose. So, I firmly believe I am totally makin' a come back. If i ever win enough, I WILL BUY A NEW SOFA FOR MY AUSSIE HOME. Deal.

For a moment, i thought blogging would kill some of my futile time but ain't working, bud. As my eyes swayed right downwards of my laptop, oh well, 5 mins passed. Bummer. Bye people, let's cross my fingers and pray that i won't fall back to sleep and miss out my date totally.

REAL OLD PHOTOS FROM ADL

Our best friend! hahahaha

I really do have to admit that i miss adl more than i expected and intended. Back to my 2nd home soon :)

3 weeks...

2011-01-30T05:05:00.000+08:00

The sound of raindrops hitting against my window with that simultaneous "tat-tat" rhythm will never become the least favourite things on my list. These few days have been pouring so badly which totally explain my bed-and-I-relationship.

Three weeks, is what left on my calender before hitting the square box marked " flying back". After officially moving out of my previous apartment, I finally found somewhere decent enough for me to hand in my application so Please please please, I hope i'll get that apartment. I'm kinda worn out looking for more, seriously.

Anyways, reading through my horoscope for 2011 delights me entirely. My unhappy memories just seemed to recede with 2010. Coolest shit, shall i make this year be! :D

PS: I have an urge to get a puppy in Adelaide.

I promise

2011-01-21T03:48:00.000+08:00

And I promise to not to live for anyone but myself.

The place I always wanna be

2011-01-03T01:49:00.002+08:00

I miss that beach.

That beach with the strongest breeze that fought against my face til I couldn't feel my bits.

That beach where we stayed in the car witnessing the magnificent sunset together.

That beach that we talked about our dreams and made promises.

And that is why I miss that beach, those memories.

Happy New Year

2010-12-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

I would probably throw my fist in the air and embrace 2011 with excitment BUT getting sick ain't making things any better. So, i'd rather choose to spend my new year on my bed with my tv. Besides I've promised to hand my liver an opportunity to regenerate after those crazy boozing and partying scenes. Sadly,I have heaps of things lining up for me. My nails are chipping so badly that i could hear them screaking for a repaint. Apparently, my competence has been replaced by that overwhelming urge to just get glued to my bed and watch my TVeee. BUT, once again i've promised myself (one of my new year's resolution) to be discipline especially when it comes to my body. Oh wait, I'm suppose to talk about the New Year and here i go digressing as usual. Time for a change.

Yea, it's totally gonna be my last year in Uni (how fast) and last ever time of my student life. I've promised myself so many things for this 2011. Honestly, i do have a record of a promise breaker to myself but it ain't gonna happen this time. I will stop burrowing myself back into the comforting familiarity of my past and move on bravely to experience life doubtlessly. I am monitoring myself to abide by the rules I've set for myself and FYI i'm doing good. YAYS, Kimmy's all grown up! haha I certainly hope that all these disciplinary routines will resume when I'm back to Aus.

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD. ESPECIALLY TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS!

The happiness that can't be replaced.

2010-12-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Boxing Day! I always wonder if anybody in this world be able to contain their excitment of ripping off their presents only on boxing day itself, will receive my honourable kow tow. Anyways, I hate to accept the fact the my favourite festive is coming to an end for real but spending it with my bunch of girlies really does makes a difference.

I realise i have been spending too much time thinking about unhappy stuff but until i saw a toppled cargo at the expressway today, that's when reality hit me to sense. When life is so vulnerable to an extent that you lose your control over it, that's when you start to fret. In comparison to my problems, it seems like it gradually minimise til it vanishes and I don't see why I should even feel sad. So, I've decided.......

MY LATEST RESOLUTION: Kimmy, don't ever try to stop smiling.

Oh, did i mention that i wanna go on a ULTIMATE DIET PLAN (hmm.. i thought i always am?). HAHAHA
Ciao.

Merry fucked Xmas

2010-12-25T06:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so fucked seriously. But, I just can't go against my principles, period. Guilt has been eating me up bit by bit, step by step. If only, painkiller do exists. Merry Christmas.

I KNOW IT ALL...

2010-12-21T06:41:00.001+08:00

It's the memories that brings me back,

playing over and over again like the old movies that never ends - never will.

Distraught and in pain, I never wanna come face to face.

Holding on not, I say.

Welcome back to the place where i belong.

Confession

2010-12-18T17:33:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we fought so hard for something, knowing that's not what we wanted.

Take me away

2010-12-11T01:48:00.001+08:00

This has all became surreal to me.

I watched myself drown in all these, died and revive.

And maybe working hard will deflect all of my sorrows and worries.

Happy Birthday to ME

2010-12-03T05:19:00.001+08:00

If stepping away from age 18 is gonna happen within 24 hours time, I am particularly not a huge fan of it. Since young, I never see birthday celebrations as a big deal, in fact i hated especially when it comes with the package of singing that magical song that leads to falling into an intentional reverie as always. God, thinking of it makes my hair stand. Time really do passes in the flicker of an eyelash when the seat of 18 wasn't even warmed - I have to give it up.

Leaping towards the age of 19 does makes me sounds a lil' older (still young tho) but the flashbacks of the past momentarily blinded me. Things that I shouldn't and should have done come haunting me in the most uncanny style. I guess birthdays isn't really bout receiving presents (maybe yess) nor blowing out the incredibly increasing amount of candles. It's more like a reciting your report card aloud. As the age grows, the refusal of looking at the report card becomes stronger.

Still, I am happy to see my life cycling in the most normal way- growing in age. I wish for not only the growth in age, but intellectually, emotionally and maturity.

Happy Birthday Kimmy.

NOISE VS WEATHER - which is worse?

2010-11-27T02:24:00.004+08:00

If only anyone could shut that drunkard miscreant from hollering his life away down that street, I'll pay for a meal. His voice sounds like nails on chalk board to me, yea that bad. I swear I'll never live near a bar(if i ever knew initially) ever again. On early weekdays, I could barely hear anything except times when random people with randomest conversation down the street. And on late weekdays and weekends, these are the times when they rock my life. You have no idea how it is like.

Anyways, I am so looking forward to get back to SG, maybe not the humid weather but one awful option doesn't put me off. At least I'm sure SG makes me less broody and melancholic. Well, perhaps it's the weather or being alone or both but I cannot deny the fact that I am having the best of my time (so far) in Aus besides the frequent visits of random snippet of thoughts circling round my brain like a choo-choo train. I just felt a lil' lost after exams cos' there's nothing to worry about, no datelines to meet up, no procrastination in process, in other words, life is too good to be true. I think i deserve a kick in the ass for my contradiction.

My contradiction, however, doesn't ends there (wtf, how much more?). Summer's arrival isn't exactly what I really needed now. The heat is beyond bearable. Perhaps my body has been tune to the winter condition and it now has provocatively declined this freaking weather. It feels good to be out baking under the sun at the beach but i kinda miss those days when I'm being wrapped up like a bear. An escape to Melbourne (slightly cooler) is definitely an ideal choice. And I am so excited!! Ciaooo.

~~OLD~~ Pictures that illustrate my boring life

No way back,babe

2010-11-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

Life doesn't always have a return ticket to buy.

Sleeping problems and more...

2010-11-21T03:41:00.002+08:00

Insomnia came attacking me with full force after the exit of my exams. Seriously, what am i? A bat woman? I've unknowingly been sleeping once in 2 days and I know, this sounds total absurd but it's within my control no more. Talking myself into sleeping has already became my daily routine which often leads to digression that resulted in whatever-i-mentioned-above situation. The recollection of the days when i could even barely sleep during my events job does help in enlightening me on how fortunate i am now, but this aid doesn't seem to sustain long enough. Cos' I still can't bloody sleeeeeeep. And my last ever resort - sleeping pills pleaseeeee. Which is not gonna happen cos' i never believed in swallowing pills(more like disliking). Or perhaps I am just too relaxed everyday (sorry bel, and others working on exams) thus zero content of exhaustion is being produced which means there's no mean of triggering my sleeping button. Ahh, this all sounds logical to me now.

New Resolution of the Month: Wear yourself out relentlessly, kimmy.

Now that my exam has come to an end, the thoughts of my future entered. The only uncertainty that I am facing is : to go or not to go, New York. This definitely sounds like a big dream to everyone, especially me. NYC is a place full of dreams, a place where even the lights will inspire you (haha), according to 'Empire State of Mind' which my housemate is practically blasting everyday( not to mention "i love the way you lie") but oh god, I'll be graduating in another year's time and the last thing I want, is to freak out on my graduation day of being skeptical about my next step. C'mon, the most realistic plan is to head back to SG and look for a decent job accompanied with a decent life. But, I don't wanna be realistic. I once heard of this " Dream big or get home" statement which i totally agreed to. Since, I am so determined then what is it that's holding me back? Well, MONEY - the universal problem, i say.

I've probably drained my dad's by coming to Australia and I wanna spend my dad's money no more. We all know that NYC is not only known for its high paid job,(my ultimate motive) and also the high living standards with its exorbitant rental fees. To be frank, it's not like I'm gonna get there and receive my pay check immediately unless I am so in demand(which i should stop deluding myself). And so, this is when my planning takes place now instead of next year.

Things to Do in 2011 ft' "to be monetarily qualified for NYC":

1. Look for a job
-hilton hotel internship
-casual work if hilton rejects me :'(

2. Stop eating out so much (save money)

3. Brush up on my culinary skills (linked to point 2)

4. No more unnecessary shopping (define unnecessary, shit)

5. Drink less, Party less

6. Get a boyfriend ( tell me if that helps in monetary wise)

7. Sell my body (haha, kidding for sure)

8. Trying to make up to point 10

9. EAT LESS! (save money + slimming- if it ever happens)

10. YAY, keep up with my resolutions.

So well, it seems like I've planned it all out (ignoring the cliche saying that plans can never stay, as it always changes), I am so determined and positive that it'll be a blast next year. Triple YAYS.

When we were 15...

2010-11-19T06:07:00.000+08:00

When we were 15, we were dancing together.

When we were 15, we were defiant to the teachers.

When we were 15, we were so close to one another.

And now, these two people will be the best mothers on earth.

I miss you girls.

drive drove driven

2010-11-18T20:16:00.001+08:00

Am I really not a driving material person? This doubt never have left my mind. Once again, I prove myself right. A couple of days ago, I spontaneously drove Andrew's car from Sam's to mine. It started off really smoothly until a right turn was needed. And it was then i realised, I don't know how to make a turn. I know, how demoralising was that. Fortunately, there was no crash, not at all. The only crash i had was accepting the fact that I can't make a proper right turn. :'( But, I am so looking forward to my next trial driving session again! I wonder who will have the guts to hand their cars to me.

PS: I will master driving, one day.

ONE LAST SHOT- TEQUILA I MEAN?

2010-11-17T00:12:00.001+08:00

Blasting "my boo" in my laptop while attempting to force myself into reading my business law's exam in 24 hours time is definitely a cross culture of bliss (the song) and misery (biz law wtf). It is like fighting for a sure-lose war. But then again, I still gotta convince myself to reach out for the sight of that tiny winy glimpse of hope. Afterall, that's all I can do now.

The thought of being officially exam-free tml is just so exciting. I have like tons of things I wanna do before I leave for Singapore. Besides treating myself on a holiday to Melbourne, I gotta look out for my awesome apartment next year (don't wanna be homeless)!!! Speaking of which, Kel and I had our eye on this service apartment just a couple of street away from where we are living now. They had facilities like SPA, SWIMMING POOL, GYM and etc. So, let's cross our fingers and pray that there will be vacancies once we get our ass back.

One thing I gotta do for sure is take more pictures. Ever since i arrived in Adelaide, I haven't been pulling out my camera much excluding the first few months when we vigourously took pictures like tourists. Even if i did snap a couple of pictures now and then, they seemed to be the permanent occupants in my camera, never been uploaded. haha. Yea, tons of overdue pictures which i dread to upload. Oh well, start taking pictures and assigning them to their respective and rightful places, shall i.

Happy Monkey

2010-11-09T16:33:00.002+08:00

I am feeling exceptionally happy today!

10 AM LIBRARY UNBELIEVEABLE

2010-11-06T09:16:00.000+08:00

Maybe I am dreaming. Ouch, I'm not. The justification of the bright light in the library is telling me that I am here in the uni library at 10am on a Saturday morning after an alcoholic night. Honestly, how many damn kids can remember the word 'UNIVERSITY' after partying the night before? At least i do. Well, I shouldn't just claim the credit, in fact I didn't sleep the night so i kinda landed myself in uni. Still, it is exceptionally, extraordinarily impressive for me (trying to praise myself again). I am totally struggling with my assignments now. No kidding, 2000 words ain't the problem, 50% weightage is. I am so stoked.
Maybe I am still drunk from last night's alcohol (which i clearly remember i was damn sober) to cause me in constant stoning. I have lost count in the number of time that I regretted enrolling in uni and way too many times thinking that uni is no biggie. Obviously, I'm not being productive at all. Not when the dateline is up. haha.

Goodie Byes

2010-11-04T18:49:00.002+08:00

We had joy, we had fun, we had season in the sun. But all this is going to be on the halt, cos' i said it so.

Wake up

2010-11-03T13:36:00.000+08:00

When I see the misunfortunates, and realise how fortunate i really am, it's just another tight slap on my cheeks.

We count down, we start now

2010-11-01T03:19:00.000+08:00

They say truth hurts, but i think, living in denial hurts even more. How many times have we convince ourselves to believe in something that never had existed? Countless. I've made so many wrong decisions and now that i realise, it's time for the right one. I am just so determined at this moment, thus explain my actions in punching down every single thoughts(which i usually don't) otherwise this feeling might disappear any time.

Enrolling my courses, planning my time table in dawn does help to make me think rationally and feel motivated. And right now, all i wanna do is to wait for the sky to light up, for my clock to hit 11am so i can head to uni and start off my "pre-exams dilligently unkimberly lifestyle". Well, we'll see...

Hold on to my faith

2010-10-25T12:23:00.000+08:00

The confliction i have in me, it's a turmoil now. It's not exactly like the hardest decision to make but it's ain't easy to keep up with, not at all. It's not love nor infactuation. It's just habit. I know it's really not a big deal afterall.

...

2010-10-16T17:28:00.000+08:00

True friends tell the truth, otherwise, we are only friends.

When we conquer Sydney.....

2010-10-15T14:12:00.001+08:00

It all started with the first night when we adventurously headed down to King Cross Street, unarmed, having a mutual idea that we might get shot to death by some random drunkards (the one shot that will kill 3 of us).

'HAHA. Well, it didn't turn out to be that chaotic BUT, it was pretty dramatic that night.

To tearing the drumstick off that whole chicken (not to mention that we lao sai after that) and eating our lives away on that tiny bed like a salvage beast.

Best of all, that contagious laughter that we couldn't stop which lead to a series of loud knocks on our door accompanied with 'SHUT THE FUCK UP'.

Oh, and not to forget that annoying song that was implanted in my head for the rest of the trip which goes “Why do birds suddenly aPPEAR." That emphasis on that 'ppear' was about to kill all of us that night (excluding kellen, the creator).

But now, i am back to reality. The assignments and the exams i'm facing ahead.

The blessing in disguise

2010-10-14T16:07:00.000+08:00

I AM FREAKING ONE STEP CLOSER TO MY DREAM.

You cannot believe this, dude.

Welcome 2011

2010-10-11T13:30:00.000+08:00

The weather finally hit awesomely 28 degrees. I have never felt the warmth for a long long time and this sunny afternoon reminds me of the past, the times when i am in Singapore. At that time, i probably would not have imagine how would it be like now. The dreams, the people have all changed for good or bad. But what matter most is right now, at this moment. I am so glad that i am here, doing what i want. Perhaps, it might not be the way i thought it would be, i still enjoy myself. As much as i miss Singapore, i wanna stay here longer.

As usual, Kel and I had a once-in-a-while-night-talk in my room til late last night. That's like one of the best thing living alone with a friend. Apart from the fights(which we don't), the kinda lifestyle is to die for, seriously. We were planning on how we shall make our last year a blast starting from moving to the most perfect house (house partayee!!) to finding the best companion. It's our last year together. After so, we'll probably be flying to different destinations working on different dreams. She's still skeptical about her future and so do i. Honestly, who's not? Life does not have itenary for you to follow through exactly cos' whatever we planned will always change anyways.

I guess i just wanna have fun right now, no commitment, nothing. I really wanna give it all out. So, welcome 2011!! (is it too early? haha)

Give it Up

2010-10-04T15:24:00.000+08:00

Life is just too short for me to waste my time on something that i shouldn't. I woke up this morning and realise that i should just put everything behind me. Perhaps in the first place, I shouldn't even be thinking about it cos' I am the one who wants this to be on the hold. But whatever it is, school is starting, exams are coming and the year is ending. Enjoy everything while it lasted.

PS: 2 more months

YOU ARE ALWAYS LYING

2010-09-13T13:28:00.000+08:00

Some say maybe,

Some say not.

How can I convince myself to trust you more?

Sigh Sigh Sigh

2010-09-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

There is absolutely no reason for me to be emo.

I may not be the luckiest person on earth but i am one those lucky chaps out there.

When will this stop?

8 days gone

2010-09-09T07:06:00.000+08:00

8 days just seem to pass in a blink of eye. If i didn't blog, i wouldn't have known the feeling of sitting in the airport, blogging exactly like 8 days before. Okay, i'm getting distracted. Cos' the kids beside me are so freaking boisterous. Seriously! Anyways, i just hate to say goodbyes.

I HATE TO FREAKING SAY GOODBYES TO MY ADELAIDE FRIENDS WHEN I AM GOING.

AND NOW, I DREAD TO SAY GOODBYE TO MY COLLEAGUES WHEN I'M LEAVING.

But the good thing is, i am so gonna meet them up when i back in Sydney in a week's time. I seriously can't blog now with that kid whinning away. He literally break off my string of thoughts.

Bye for now!

PS: I don't know if i should say.......

BYE BYE SYDNEY OFFICE :'(

2010-09-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

The last night in this little cosy office. I didn't expect sadness would struck me cos' all the time i have been complaining that I wanna go back home to sleep my ass off. I know i know, i'm always indecisive. I brought forward my sat flight to thurs and now, I am doubting my decision. I hate it when i am having so much fun with my colleagues cos' i know the next minute we will all be flying to other countries ; entirely different world.

One thing for sure, is that these people i'm working with do make a difference is my job. All the fun we had during working and in the apartment. I will totally miss the days. Hahaa.. but in 10 mins time i am going to partayeee. MADNESS!!!

10 things I have done in damn Sydney

2010-09-05T06:39:00.000+08:00

1. Blogging while I'm working

2. Slept less than 3 hours per day

3. Tried all the variety of sandwhiches in Sydney Showgrounds

4. Deprived for sleep BADLY (how sad)

5. Walkie Talkie glued to my ear more than 17 hrs per day

6. Still thinking.......

7. Can't think of any other things i've done than work....

8. After all, this is my 3rd day only......

9. Hmm... OH YEA... met a HUNK in the plane ( something to be happy bout!)

10. Goodbyess....

Aiport.Sydney.Adelaide Hone

2010-09-02T10:31:00.000+08:00

" Roses are red,

Violets are blue

My heart to you

Always so true"

The last time we were laughing over these passe primary school poems was at cibo. And right now, Kimmy is alone at the airport waiting for her Mr. Tiger to fly her off to Sydney while sipping old flame- cibo's mocha. (no thanks to zabaccino *pukes*). The sky is so freaking bright and it kinda shines directly into the entire waiting area which make the apparent still-in-alcoholic-mode-me so awake.

I still cannot believe that the people here makes leaving so hard for me. Seriously, it's not like i'm going home or what, It's just like a lil' work trip but i was basically hugging everybody last night as if i was gone for good. How weird. But i guess these people are my family in Adelaide.

Woot, a plane just flew pass me~

But whatever it is, I hope it will be a good trip. Don't really wanna overwork myself but then again, the amount of money i get makes sitting here, waiting for plane all so worth it.

Byeeeesss.....

Hi Sydney (unexpectedly soon)

2010-08-31T22:38:00.000+08:00

I know this is really sudden, but i am flying off to Sydney the day after tml to work for my ex company's event. I finally finished my last min packing and stuff. I had no idea if it is excitement or more like a horror to me. I needa like really rush on my assignments but i guess i gotta bring these mission impossible to Sydney. BUt anyways, wish me a safe trip!

Sorry

2010-08-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

When all these people are incomparable to you,

All i wanna do is nothing.

Bye Biz Law (not yet) and Hello Sydney (not yet either)

2010-08-25T16:50:00.002+08:00

The repetition of the word 'assignment ' i heard in one day is incredibly scary. 9 out of 10 people recites bout their life (which apparently has no seperation with assignments) to me. Pot calling the kettle black, kimmy is now like in the campus central trying to work on my business law while procrastinating every minute i can. Whatever it is, i do enjoy this kinda procrastination and meeting datelines( i know it's sick) cos' it just reassures my dilligence( though last min,wtf). I am certainly positive that i will get through all of this as i am so looking forward to my Sydney trip.

Speaking of which, Christabel Tan introduced us to a so called 'too good to be true backpackers hostel'. Her exaggeration apparently turned out to be true. Take a look ( those are the activites they are providing) :

Monday: Killer Pool Competition @ Side Bar

First prize - $50 bar tab

An hour of FREE wine & happy hour $3.50 beer & wine

2 for 1 vouchers & free finger food

Tuesday: Free BBQ at Coogee beach and Party @ Maloney’s Hotel

FREE Aussie Beach BBQ at Coogee Beach in the afternoon

Live Band @ Maloney’s Hotel

$2.95 buffet, $8 jugs & cocktails from 6pm

2 for 1 Vouchers

Wednesday : Party @ Scubar

$4.95 buffet, $1 pool & $3 drinks @ Shark Hotel

2 for 1 vouchers & party games @ Scubar from 9pm – great prizes!

Thursday: Karaok Night @ Shark Hotel

MAZE Hostel Quiz night with FREE wine – great prizes

Backpacker Karaoke @ Shark Hotel from 9pm

$4.95 buffet, $1 pool & $3 drinks

Good singer, bad singer, or just plain awful, if you are one of the first 20 people to get up and belt out your favourite track, you get your drink for free "LET'S DO THIS BEL!!! AHAHAHAH"

Friday: Our Legendary Wine & Cheese Night

An hour of FREE wine, FREE cheese & FREE fun @ the hostel

Kick-start the weekend with DJ shipwreck on the decks @ Side Bar

2 for 1 vouchers & happy hour $3.50 beer & wine

Saturday : FREE Bondi to Coogee Beach Walk & Live Entertainment @ Maloney’s

2 hours of breath taking views and unmissable photo-ops

You’ve worked up an appetite... now it’s time for $4.95 ALL-U-CAN-EAT buffet, $1 pool & $3 drinks @ Shark Hotel

Still kicking on? Come on FREE Live bands @ Maloney’s Hotel from 9:30pm

Sunday: Movie Marathon Night

$4.95 buffet, $1 pool & $3 drinks @ Shark Hotel

Recovery FREE Movie Marathon in hostel TV room from 7pm with FREE popcorn of course!

Well, i totally cam foresee that this trip is so going to be fun. Besides all the partying and boozing, our sure do places like blue mountain, sydney opera house and aquarium (wtf, but it's free) is absolutely gonna be HOT STUFF. Hang, why do i sound like writing some travel log? Still, i am convinced that i will have lot's of fun dude. I can totally picture the scenes in my head now but then again, i have to complete my Biz law assignment lying infront of me. Shit, i just got like pulled back to the reality. Boo.

Hello Sydney (soon?)

2010-08-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

I realised i am totally a non-winter material girl seriously. I know i should be feeling really lucky to be able to escape from Singapore's humid weather for abit but, the weather now is killing me. The cold wind literally prick into my bone, ain't kidding at all. I am so looking forward to Spring's grand arrival.

Kel and I had an 'are-we-really-happy-in-aus' issue last night. We started to think of people we meet, the things that happen to us. I was pretty skeptical about the whole situation of being happy or not. Honestly, it's not like something bad happened. It's just little things that add up which is annoying. Sometimes, being nice is ain't good cos' it's not reciprocated at all. Friends come and go, and who are the ones who will really stay by your side?

Anyways, i am SOOOOOO going to Sydney! In fact the whole Sydney trip was initiated by Kel cos' she wanna watch SHE concert and she generously bought me a ticket. Well, i am more than thrilled (a lil" exaggerated), though i'm not a big fan of SHE but it's my first time going to a music concert so something to be happy bout yea. We managed to talk Christabel into this trip so i totally can visualise the scenes of getting drunk..er well, i am just kidding. Purely sight seeing and phototaking (Winks at Kel and Bel). But let's wish that this trip is gonna be a blast.

PS: I refuse to start on my Business Law Assignment.

If i could take back all these

2010-08-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

I love you for who you are and not who you are trying to be.

So, just be yourself baby.

2010-08-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

I am now heading to the gym in 9 degrees. The kinda of motivation i have, woah speechless *flicks my hair*. But then again, how long will it last. Go Go Go KIM~ You know what, i realise i have one and a half year more to go. I can't wait to graduate but part of me wants to be a student forever. I wonder how will i be able to enjoy this kinda student life in the future.

NEW NEW SEM (late post)

2010-08-04T15:19:00.000+08:00

I realise all my previous posts were like on the negative emoish side and it made me look like coming to Australia was a disaster. But it ain't true. Yea, no doubt that the strange frequency is always there, I'm happy here. In fact, i only blog when i'm down so... yea.

Well, it's 5 in the wees, and i still have thousand of things running through my mind as you know, tml will be a start of my new sem and you know the feeling of 'new' which we usually relates to stuff like new year and resolutions. Apparently i convieniently replaced my year with sem but whatever it is, my point is i'm right now reviewing all the things i've done and not only in this 6 months. It's seems like a lot of proccessing boy.

Using the most cliche method (i know), i tore a piece of paper from my diary and headed with " Things i wanna accomplish before the year ends..." . I named each of my uncertainties and things to be done(as usual). Speaking of which, i always wonder why am i not strong willed or motivated enough.

17 July 2010

2010-07-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

They finally left and all i felt was being alone once again. The laughter, the noises and the cook outs just makes me feel so home and loved. And right now i'm lying on my heated matress feeling extremely lonely. Well, I probably should have gotten use to it but I can't help to feel like that. Perhaps, I should be blaming on the frosty weather cos' it kinda like unleash my potential of emoness. Whatever it is, emoness will go away ; tommorrow?

I love not caring

2010-07-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes learning to be oblivious to certain things makes me happier and slowly i realise what i thought i wanted isn't what i actually want.

And right now, I would once again listen to the voice within.

PS: Can't wait to see them :D

updates downdate

2010-07-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Tonight is my final battle. I cannot imagine i've finished 3 of my papers cos It seems like I've been through world War II, hang, sounds more like the Great Depression. Whatever, that's not the point . It's just kinda weird sitting on my sofa, hearing the clicking of the keypad, the ticking of the clock, seeing the pile of notes lying on my table accompanied with the-best-ever mushroom soup. I never expect my life to be that studious but apparently it happens to be. It's just so amazing. Well, I'll get over and done with all these hassle and rejoice entering the greatest time of my life - HOLIDAYS. I know a huge feast is awaiting for me man~!

Anyways, sometimes i wonder why do people fret over relationship. I always thought that if 2 people are in love with each other, the story is going to be a full stop but then again, in reality it will always going to be a question mark and triple dots. Ultimately, being happy is the reason of being together isnt it? The only way to answer my doubts is when i really find one. I don't see it coming though. haha

Shit, this is making me so emo. Speaking of which, everybody's flying back home. It's just so depressing. Christabel Tan is leaving, sus, marco is leaving and Terry is leaving (for holiday wtf). Well, i'm about to open my excel sheet and come out with a namelist but in other words, it's just everyone. I'm gonna miss them so much. The clubbing times, feasting times, the lil 'art of seduction' happening in my house and the freaking locked out in a 4 degrees night with Bel. I'm going to freaking miss that girl. But hate her entirely when she recites a list of food she is eating back home.

God, it time for me to start on my pre-battle revision. I just can't wait til the popping of champange day. Ciao~

The random post

2010-06-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

I have no idea how to start my setence with " My University life in Australia is..... " well, pathetic? Yea when exams and assignments are flooding my entire brain, stabbing each of my brain cells like seriously. This semester is coming to an end in a week's time. Like the old cliche saying, time flies. It really does. I can't believe i had survive through my uni life for solid 4 months. Speaking of the books and uni just seem to be so unkimberly. I wanna say no more.

Anyways, i wanna change my blogskin. IT IS FREAKING UGLY AND MESSY.

Cheers.

KILL ME!

2010-05-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

If there's one thing that could put me to death, it would be no doubt, my school work. I cannot express with words how i dread to even start on my assignments seriously. You totally have no idea how these assignments are drivin me crazy. Well, and all the stupid thoughts of why do i choose to study abroad and stuff just keep ranting in my head. Someone, please save me. I'm totally insane.

LIFE CAN NEVER BE OK WITHOUT INTERNET

2010-05-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, I'm really pathetic now cos' i over used my internet stick and i gotta hang around in school to use internet for free. Well, Australia really needa know what is 'unlimited internet', SERIOUSLY.

Anyways, my final exams is coming up very soon, probably in a month's time. I'm kinda freaking out boy. I hope i can really do well cos' it i do, I'll be going Scotland for half a year. YAYS!!

SCOTLAND!!

A country i'll never even think of going but right now, my chance is here. I'll be there to study for bout half a year at their uni but provided, my grades are good. Let's cross our fngers and pray hard that i'll be able to get my ass there!

I'm doing really great here. The thing is it's getting colder each day and I'm eating a ridiculous amount of food. It's just weird, during winter i'll get hungry super easily and it's ain't a good thing cos' i really don't wanna put on any extra weight. In fact, i should lose weight and go on a diet. Yea, whatever. That's like my life time mission impossible goal.

Alrighty, I've gotta go, CIAO. :)

THE EXCEPTION MORNINGGGG

2010-04-30T04:55:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING!!

It's is freaking 6.15 am in the morning and I've just finished my assignment.

I cannot express how happy am i cos' my next assignment is due in 1 months time, that means, I don't have to think of any due dates for the time being.

Gosh, the sky is lighting up and it's time for me to go to bed.

Well well, i dread to do assignments but I think i liked them too cos' they made me feel that I'm living, real hard though.

TO BORED NOT TO BLOG

2010-04-28T21:06:00.001+08:00

I wonder how will my consecutive blogging habit last for this time round. Well, actually i was in the midst of doing my assignment but I just couldn't focus so i decided to do something else for a moment. I have no idea why assignments never ever come to an end. Seriously, the allocated marks in assignment is freaking hell more than in actual exam so, there's no way out for me man.

But then again, i'm feeling contradicting cos' if anybody ask me the question, " How's adelaide?", I will have a standardize template to this question, " Quiet, laid-back and nice weather." I know,'quiet, laid back' doesn't fit into my lifestyle right now cos' i'm still like a busy buzzy bee. At least hard work paid off. Never in my life i will think my sort of results are considering 'good grades' but i think i'm doing pretty well this time round so i'm pretty happy.

Woooahh, my hands are so numb now that i can't type properly. It's a freaking 12 degrees now. Not the coldest, but I'm dying already. I don't even wanna think about winter. Typing words can be kinda boring, so let me rummage through my album to see what i can post.

I've went to Hahndorf ( German Village) to act like a tourist.

Went to the zoo to explore and I can proudly say, " Singapore's ZOO is the best!" *cheers*

Club for lil' bit.

Maybe, more than a lil' bit. hahas, when i'm assignment free.

Seize every opportunity to hang at the beach before summer officially ends.

To post for pictures where ever i go, but I'm lazy these days. So, these are all the old pictures.

Been eating ALOT. But i seriously cook even more. I usually pack lunch boxes to school cos' eating out is too expensive. Well, I'm a saver.

And yums, the german meat platter in Hahndorf. What can i say? Pictures says a thousand words.

After posting all the pictures, I feel contradicting again cos' I couldn't deny that Adelaide is indeed an enjoyable laid back country if, for a moment, I can forget about my assignments. But, i have to say i'm enjoy myself alot. I've gone through the worst times here so i guess, the best is awaiting ahead.

IT'S NEVER ENOUGH

2010-04-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

I realise every human is in greed. It's just the matter of the level within oneself. Seriously, on a positive side, greed seems to make you become a better person. Yea, i know it sounds weird but look, wanting for more makes you aim higher and you'll eventually get a higer achivement. I guess all the successful people's greed level must be pretty high right?

Anyways, I can't believe it's almost 3 months. That was like really fast. I was announcing to the whole world recently, that i wanna move house and buy a car. I can't do it right now cos' I've signed a year's lease with this apartment I'm staying. So, the only way is to get someone to take over my apartment. I'm still waiting for news. Guys, please wish me luck man. I seriously wanna move out and get my twinki winnie. Oh yea, Twinki Winnie is a car that Kel and I are so pretty much in love with cos' he is so damn cute and cheap and old.

But everything will not go accordingly unless someone take over my apartment. *Cross Fingers*
Ciao ;)

Updated finally

2010-03-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'm not ditching my blog, is just that i kinda like lose the momentum of writing. It's hard to even start with a sentence. But anyways, i'll just continue. It's been a good 2 months since i'm here. Hoenstly, i'm adapting pretty well, better than i expected. School has started for a month and i would say is ain't that bad but there's alot of catching up to do cos' there is still some difference in writing and teaching style. I guess University is just about assignments pilling up and burning mid night oil. But school work isn't the only thing that kept me busy, i had my own kinda fun too.

Actually, living alone is not as bad as i thought, minusing away all the house chores, laundry work, it can be an amazing thing. Maybe it's really like gaining your freedom, having all the 'me time'. No matter how i dread i feel doin all the shitty chores, it had become my weekly routine so yea, all about adapting.

I've made some friends over here, as usual cos' it's just how i spend my weekends. And never expect too much from Adelaide cos' it can't be any happening. Despite some boring nights, i still like this place. It slows down my pace, my style of doing everything. It's just so laid back.

Oh, i will be having a short break in april, so probably will be touring around. I just can't make up my mind if i should tour out of the state so i'll just see how it goes. Anyway, miss my family and friends AND SINGAPORE FOOD. Good nights.

2010-03-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

Even though with all the Harvard Referencing kinda thing scaring me out of shit,

I think I like studying here.

Even though with minimal social life (not that i've made enough friends),

I think i still like here.

And right now, i realise i'm acting like a student ; a real student.

To be precise, i wouldn't say act. I am a student now.

And will be a dilligent one :)

My continuation of Aussie life

2010-02-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

Seems like it is a good phenomenon that i blog daily. Well, i wonder how long will it last. Okay, i'm too pessimistic. Anyway, i was thinking about my chilli plant all day long, and kept bugging my friends with this topic. It's like a mother bratting about her kids. Yea, something like that. And especially right now i'm living alone outside, i'm starting to adapt a weird habit of entitling a name to every single non-living thing, cos' it makes me feel like home. My chilli plant wouldn't give it a miss. I thought chillo sounds pretty cool. Settled.

Well, I wanna continue my story of having the best pancakes in Port Adelaide. I know once again RX can't get over my pancake. Muhahaha. Anyways, after our pancakes, we went to the Port Adelaide Market Fair which is Pasamalam. Yea, perhaps a more atas one. It is really nice to shop and look around. Some of the stuff are 2nd hand antique goods while others are very unique products they wanna test water in the market.

It took me hours to look at every single thing!

Bought some really good 2nd hand books which have stop published.

And one fine day, i went out with some of my friends to Glenelg(a famous beach in Adelaide) to attend a short film festival. It was pretty cool actually. But before the film starts, some of our friends sat down at the grass and start to play guitar and sing. It was so so enjoyable.

Camel Riding!!!

Eating Seafood Baskets and osyters while watching the film to keep our tummy quiet

The crowd is waiting for the film to start~

And finally, it starts. This are a series of short film, filmed but each contestants from different states. The're casting the live one in sydney and melbourne at the same time too.

Look at the beautiful sky~ Accompanied by the films.

Awww... So romantic!

I went to Central Market and bought lots of grocceries for dinner. I think shopping for food is like super amazing. It's pretty much my hobby now, other than watering chillo. haha

The Japanese Curry i cooked! I'm so proud of myself cos' it taste hella good.*Tap on the shoulder* Kel and I had 2 bowls of rice each. It's very SINFUL but you know curry have the ability to make people stack up their bowls.

And as for today, we met up with Jeriel at ChinaTown shopping for grocceries AGAIN. See, i told you it's my hobby. Manage to bought some Mushrooms and Chillies. When we headed to Rundle Mall, I saw this lady feeding all the birds. Frankly speaking, i'm really super scared of birds, no kidding! But i was so touched by her kind heartedness.

Next on, we went to The Pasta Shop which is also aka the wood oven pizza place for dinner. It was so so good. We tried their beers which are not too bad. They have like a whole list of beers for you to choose from. You know, Aussie drink beer like we drink water.

This pizza is on par with the one i ate at Westlakes. It's called the 'Millionaire' : topped with KING PRAWNS, CRAYFISH, SCALLOPS, FRESH CRAB MEATS and drenched with CHEESE. By reciting all this makes me drool again. It is so so good!!

PS: I miss my family and friends. LOVE LOVE~

My chilli plant and I

2010-02-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

Today, will be officially the first time i stayed at home the whole day. Well once again, i think i am a good material of housewife-to-be. I've been washing the toilet -.-, cleaning my room and basically, cleaning the house. Thank god, my house ain't that big.

Anyways, I'M SOOOO HAPPY :D. Cause i receive a chilli plant. In Australia, it isn't very hard to find chillies but they're just not hot at all plus they're sesonal fruits so during winter i could hardly see them. And my chilli plant comes in handy. hehehehe. I will promise to water it daily and update it's progress. Hopefully, before summer ends, i will be able to eat them. This is like one of the best gifts~!

The sunset from my balcony.

And my chilli plant.

Let me think a name for it.

Hello Adelaide

2010-02-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

At last, I finally got my internet connection. I realize that I'm so spoilt with unlimited amount of internet to excess in Singapore but unfortunately, Aus do not work the same way. This is like the most painful thing ever. In other words, internet just cost a bomb here. Anyway, that's the only complaint I've got. Other than that, this is like a wonderful place for me. Honestly, I didn't get to explore Adelaide like a tourist, instead, I'm a perfect housewife-to-be. I know where the cheap groceries, furniture and foods are. And finally, my house is like a house, a comfortable, cosy resting place. Living away from home is different, hard but fun. You get to customize your own house like the way you want, *on tight budget*, which apparently it's a easy job for me, cause I'm good at buying cheap but good stuff. ^ ^

The horror begins, the first day i arrive, my apartment is nothing close to what it is like now. However, I have to admit that the apartment is pretty ok, not like the kind you would freak out, but it has this pungent weird woody smell which is quite unbearable. We have to revamp the whole place and stock in our necessities.

Luckily, I've met like the nicest people ever in Adelaide. They drove us to get our furniture and house stuff which is impossible to make it without a car. I really wanna thank them so much cause a girl like me, without any driving license :( , unfamiliar to any route will not be able to complete my house all that fast. Speaking of which, we've got like weekly supply of fresh bread, were sponsored with cutleries and plenty of free meals to the Chinese. Thanks so much x 10000

The weather here is very extreme. I kinda like the craziness of it. Since its summer, in the morning, it is so hot that it can get up to 38 degrees which is like freaking hot but the amazing part is you won't sweat at all, cause it's dry and sometimes when the cold wind comes once in every time, but when night falls it can drop to 23 degrees, or even lower. So a sweater in my bag is a must. I cannot imagine how can i survive during winter. Oh ya, one thing about this place, there are so MANY stars in the night. I swear the sky is so magnificent. I never ever seen a sky filled with so many big stars.

I miss my family terribly. And can't wait to see them on web cam. My friends too. Thanks for those who came to send me off. Love you guys. In fact, I was reluctant to tell them my flight schedule but due to their threatens, I eventually did. So if the rest see this, i'm not being biased, I WAS THREATENED . Hahaha. Still, thanks to everyone.

One of the place i liked most in my apartment. My balcony!! I always sit at my balcony and talk to my family over the phone. And, i can see sunset from my balcony. Muhahaha!!

I'm a Jumpshot master!!

I think life is so amazing. I always dream of being able to sip coffee at a nice cafe at the beach looking at the sunset. And now, here i am.

Oh, we went to this place with a pond full of ducks, ducklings and swan. They are so cute. Though, they are really cute, i reckon that they are a kinda birds so i'm still very scared of them.

The pancake shop. Oh my god, like the best pancake i ever ate. It's in Port Adelaide. Their pancakes are gluten free which i suppose is non-fattening.

The German Feast!!

Egg Benedict!!

I'm really good here. Everything is great. Thanks for everybody's concern. I think my life has just started and i'm looking forward to it. Bye people. I will blog regularly.

The New Life Ahead

2010-02-10T04:49:00.001+08:00

Oh my god, I'll be leaving tonight. I'm still freaking out cos' i'm super worried that i'll be charge for my excess baggage or i'll forget to bring my important documents. Please pray for me that nothing like this will happen. *cross fingers* The past few weeks were for me to meet up with my friends and spend time with my family. I hereby proudly announce that i've completed my to-eat list, which contibutes to the fats layering up on my cheeks. Arghhh. But i still feel extremely contented .

With the very passe saying, let the picture do the talking~ :)

Oh my god! A PINK lotus with Unagi.

My sister and I went out to Carrefour and decide to make our own dinner which end up really well. Yay!! I can cook~ Honestly, i think cooking is pretty romantic.

Toh Jia Cheng trying on my winter wear, And surprisingly he looks kinda decent. haha

My sis and I were using the excuse of me leaving soon to camwhore like nobody's business. I have to agree that it is indeed a good reason yea? muhahaha. I love my sis so much. Though we ain't that kinda super mushy type, except the times when i wanna digust her, i still know deep down in us, the kinda kinship is irreplaceable.

Aha~~ My new 400 degrees nerdd specss!!

I really can't wait to go to Australia. Like besides the regular reasons of wanting to make more money in the future, going to Aus is more like pursuing my dreams. I wanna be able to look back and say during my young times, i did something i really want. But nothing can't be done without my parent. I really don't know how to express my gratitude towards them. This whole Australia thing is not cheap, not at all. So i guess the best way is study hard and repay them with good life. I know people out there who wants this as much as i do, if not even more, but i'm lucky enough to be able to get it. I'm really very grateful. Anyways, I will study hard and play hard. I wanna lead the life of people of my age should be leading. I promise my friends that i will religiously update my blog.

Also, today is also an important day to Fiona SY Wong. Like what i've said,

"The Sagittarus Turning Point" muhahah. Yea. Good Luck to you and me, babe!

Kimberly Yew is leading her brand new life in couple of hours :)

My farewell with clique

2010-02-02T11:08:00.004+08:00

I had a awesome night with my usual clique. Really wanna thank them for like gathering together and spend their last time with me :'( sob sob. Boy, this has become so emotional. haha. Anyway, i really enjoy myself to the max with each and everyone of them.

WENDY: Super awesome girl who i can sing, act and CAMWHORE with.

EVELYN: Super skinny but sexy girl who i can talk non-stop about relationship. And we have the similar taste in guys!

MANDY: Super bubbly and righteous girl that I've seen so far.

MICHELLE: Super china doll looking cute girl who i can go crazy with.

SANDRA: Super charocoal-fied and burnt girl who is way so fun and gentle-woman to be with.

JIA CHENG: Super dumb guy who fantasize johnny depp in the temple who apparently is my best friend, best neighbour ever!

DESMOND: Another Super skinny and tall dude who has a awesome taste in hair! HAHAHA * Flips his hair with his head tilted on the right*

JEREMIAS: Super nice guy who is gradually having a good pair of shoulders that wendy keeps staring at.

An it was a great experience for 8 people to squeeze in a 7 seater which don't sound any hard at all but we've made it looking like challenge all thanks to jc's CNY goods. Still, had a fun being squashed like sardines in a super doubtful driving skills driver's car. HAHAHA.

Then headed to my favourite beach. But sadly, it was acually quite hot that night. There was like zero breeze.

And lastly the collage wendy did which i stole from her blog.

It's been so wonderful to have friends like you guys, honestly. I hope after i return back to Singapore we will still meet up often like the old days. And i can't wait to see how much you all change.

LOVE YOU ALL!!:)

Random unworking days

2010-01-29T05:48:00.000+08:00

It's weird. Suddenly, i feel bored not working. Recalling the days when i barely sleep for few hours, having to rush to expo in the dawn, running around til my legs went sore, didn't seem that bad. I'm still not use to being able to sleep 12 hrs per day and not worrying whether it's a weekday or weekend, cause it doesn't matter anyway.

Whenever i pass by coffee bean, it always seems like a phobia to me. We're all so traumatised by being late for event. Like seriously, if we are late for a minute, we'll needa treat the whole team coffee bean which is like the biggest bomb to us. BUT i do have to agree that this is a fascinating punishment.

I'm so sleepy. Oh Why am i still awake at this hour?

M'sia trip with DAD & MOM

2010-01-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

I went to KL and Malacca with parents last week. I know this trip is the last one before i leave for Australia. So, I have to cherish the time with my parents as much as i can. Anyway, this trip has been a non-stop-eating-shopping one. Especially my mummy, haha. She's been buying like nobody's business. And my poor dad had to carry our shopping bags while we are in fitting room. I've been also eating like a cow!

My dad and mom~

The view from out hotel.

The roast duck is super yummy.

And roast pig. Super Super yummy!

Muhahahah... our shopping results~

After idiling in KL for a few days, we came down to Malacca. We went to the night market to walk around and eat. I love to eat at the road side stall so much. Cause they are so cheap and nice. But the best road side stall is still at Thailand!

This road side stall is super nice. I know that dad brings me to this place cause he knows i won't be able to eat these food in Aus. :"(

I'm left with precious 2 weeks. :)

Counting down

2010-01-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

I cannot believe how time passes so fast and right now, i'm already dumping a unbelieveable amount of rubbish from my room. Perhaps, i shouldn't be categorising them as rubbish to begin with. 2 BIG BAGS of garbage is like the receipt of how much i've paid throughout this year. Well, i'm sure you will find yourself in a situation of picking a fugly looking thing in your bedroom and wonder why the hell did you buy this.

BINGO ~ ~

I realise i used the whole night just to dump rubbish. I'm totally worn out. Argghh. Anyway, I'll be leaving in 1 month's time. Couldn't believe that I'm really going to Australia to study. It seems like proposing the idea to my dad was just yesterday and now, i'm already packing my stuff. Speaking of which, I am definitely going to have excess amount of baggage.

My dad keep telling me, " Bring only the neccessary". Like yea, everything is neccessary to me. So he started rummaging my luggage and constantly shaking his head. C'mon, nail polish, shoes, make ups, books and stuff along that line are neccessary ok?

I can't wait for the grand arrival of my big day.

Enlightened Warrior Camp

2009-12-08T19:32:00.002+08:00

ENLIGHTENED WARRIOR CAMP

I really think that this is one of the best event i ever done, and the most lack of sleep one. Though the entire event was pretty tough, but it was extremey fun. The best part of the event is the location. I will pass by the beach everyday. No, to be exact, the moment i open the windows or step out of the villa, the first thing i see is BEACH!!! Seriously, this is like the most wonderful thing ever. Besides this, the whole event was really great and inspirational. The participants were spontaneous and enthusiastic.

Lori,one of the volunteer crew, said that those white translucent circles are angels. Initially, i thought they were supernatural kinda stuff which i read from some where else. But, since Lori said they were angels, i choose to believe that they are. These angels appeared in our photos most of times!

The guys tried tossing every single girl up the air and i was one of the victim.

The star of the event! ABDUL~~ He is so so cute!! :) And Julie, a very motherly and kind lady i've met.

Our photograher's camera is so huge and heavy. BUT it is super nice!!!!

Adam Markel, dear Pheobe and I

After working for so hard, we finally get a day off to walk around the place, Kulua Rompin. The place is actually quite rural and quiet.

Our Beautiful Villa - Kitchen Area

The comfortable living room with excellent seaview

This was what i refering about the first thing i see when i open the windows

Our messy bed. Muhahaha

I will come to the beach every morning after breakfast to stay at the beach for half an hour before we start work. This was like the motivation of the day .

The beautiful morning beach.

The very man Aun. haha

The quite man Kimberly

And the not so man Shirlynn

Overall, this event is pretty fun. And indeed a long one. We've been staying there for 2 weeks which makes me home sick! haha. But, luckily my colleagues like to cook supper at night which save the forever hungry me.

New Life Ahead

2009-12-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hello everbody, I need to revive this place of mine. So, it is still on renovation mode but I still wanna blog.

I would like to wish Fiona a big big Happy Birthday!!

Anyway, after several obstacles of my Australia Visa, I finally get approved and I also booked my fligh as well. I am so thrilled about everything. Though leaving doesn't seem to be a good idea, but I still wanna do so. I'm thinking through about what I've did all these while. My world just revolves around my work and there goes my life. I can't remember how many times i say no to friends, how many times i back out last min. Even with all these, i still like my job. Next week will be my last event in SR and i'll regain my freedom. I will spend time with my family and friends on January so GO GO GO Kimberly! I know a new life is ahead of me.